Meh

[spudtater]

Went to juggling today, for the first time in yonks. Unfortunately the whole thing seemed to bring up some negative associations. Got paranoid and ran off. Walked home feeling slightly pathetic and sorry for myself.   8^(

Somewhat better now, though. I guess it just shows that no matter how much better you might be feeling, emotional baggage has a habit of lurking in the corners of the mental attic.

Of course, I can't just run away from everything that I was; it's unhealthy, and anyway, I have friends that I don't want to lose. But "slowly, slowly" seems to be the way to do it.

On the plus side: got hugs, and proved to myself that I haven't forgotten how to juggle.

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[lucyjin.livejournal.com]

Is this why we've seen little of Potato at Aasoc this term? :( *hugs*

If not, ignore me; if so, remember you always have a seat near me and dizziebeth if you want to come along after Christmas break. *hugs again*

[spudtater.livejournal.com]

Maybe partly. The main reason is simply that I do pub quiz on Tuesday nights these days. But anyway, I saw Clare today, and she told me to come to the next mini-con. I should do so. Or next anime social event. What's coming up?

Thanks for the *hugs*, btw!   8^)

[luckylove.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
paranoia bad.

You can juggle?!? This I must see.

[spudtater.livejournal.com]

Yes. Didn't you know that?   8^S

Obviously I haven't been diligent enough in my juggling of random objects. (Pencils, coins, pint glasses...)   8^]

[luckylove.livejournal.com]

*remembers the tangerines/satsumas/clemtines/oranges in Sainsburys*

[luckylove.livejournal.com]

The pint glasses sounds rather interesting.

[luckylove.livejournal.com]

You should make an icon of someone or something - maybe a potato - juggling. That would be amusing.

[kropotkin29.livejournal.com]

proved to myself that I haven't forgotten how to juggle.
I have concluded that learning to juggle is mostly a physical skill, like riding a bike: Once you learn your 'body memory' persists.

Since I have not juggled for eight years, I am no longer a "juggler"
but I did still manage to keep three beenbags up when I was too drunk to walk, and had been seeing double for quite some time, so some of it must have become ingrained as a core skill!

[pause]
Not that that proves much...

[spudtater.livejournal.com]

I performed an impromptu experiment once; I was incredibly drunk and stoned, and attempted to juggle three clubs. I was actually pretty good, until I fell over.