Went to juggling today, for the first time in yonks. Unfortunately the whole thing seemed to bring up some negative associations. Got paranoid and ran off. Walked home feeling slightly pathetic and sorry for myself. 8^(
Somewhat better now, though. I guess it just shows that no matter how much better you might be feeling, emotional baggage has a habit of lurking in the corners of the mental attic.
Of course, I can't just run away from everything that I was; it's unhealthy, and anyway, I have friends that I don't want to lose. But "slowly, slowly" seems to be the way to do it.
On the plus side: got hugs, and proved to myself that I haven't forgotten how to juggle.
Somewhat better now, though. I guess it just shows that no matter how much better you might be feeling, emotional baggage has a habit of lurking in the corners of the mental attic.
Of course, I can't just run away from everything that I was; it's unhealthy, and anyway, I have friends that I don't want to lose. But "slowly, slowly" seems to be the way to do it.
On the plus side: got hugs, and proved to myself that I haven't forgotten how to juggle.
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